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It's Time

2011-11-25T10:57:00.000+05:30

It's time, again, for me to make a move. Not that i do this intentionally but then it happens. I will be moving out of the current set up this december.

More on this Later.

Dilli Darshan

2011-09-01T17:03:00.000+05:30

28th August 2011

After a very long time i ventured out without any plans. The idea was to roam around Delhi and capture some of the monuments which i had already seen though but still worth a visit.

Recently i bought Nikon SLR D3100, and i also wante dto try my hand on this piece. The weather wasn't supporting as it was tres hot and humid!!Inspite of it we (me and my camera) covered part of Delhi:)

First we went to Qutub Minar, then Akshardham Temple, then Connaught Place , India Gate and then Lotus Temple and finally came back fully exhausted.

Rainy Season

2011-08-10T11:13:00.000+05:30

Best part of the year - It's raining:)
Let me venture out this weekend on a long drive.

Recent Updates!

2011-06-18T11:59:00.000+05:30

Time to share some latest happenings which has happened over the last few months.

Singapore adventure ended on a high note and the client was more then happy with my individual work. In the end it seemed worth the effort although i had to screw my long weekend without any human support.Acknowledgement and appreciation of work always works best, something which my Indian counterparts fails to understand.

Summers were at the peak in May or so it appeared to me, i was counting my days of sleeping diagonally on my bed freely. Somewhere in Mid May i lost the freedom for ever.I got married:)

As they say, "everyone should get married, happiness is not the only thing in life". I can fully understand this statement now.Pun intended.

After my planned vacation when i rejoined office, i was put directly put into the worst escalation i have faced which is still continuing and i am at the center of all this.

Long Weekend!

2011-04-24T14:56:00.000+05:30

We all make various decisions in life daily and it's because of some those very few (roughly 20%) vital decisions our most of the life (80%) bears the brunt.

This is supposed to be the long weekend and i should have been to places here and there in Singapore but what i am doing? I was in office for all 3 days sitting late nights, ensuring i cover up for others who were enjoying the vacation.

Can't i deserve a break after 18 months!

Singapore - Day 1

2011-03-13T17:47:00.000+05:30

Arrived in Singapore last week on my first official venture outside India.

Initailly i had some apprehentions coming here because of variety of reasons, more so because this beging my first such venture so i wanted to ensure that it goes well. After a week, i am quite settled and found out places of interests where in can go and eat.

I always ensure that i do connect with as many people as i can and that's what i am currently doing here as well. I started from my Hotel and i guess all the people at reception know me and also the bartenders:)
The housekeeping lady is really very good, her english is not good which she say "English no gud!!".

Otherwise people who speak english are warm and welcoming, people who do not understand English are a little different primarily because they can't communicate.

Sabbatical!!

2011-02-25T22:46:00.000+05:30

After a very long pause i am back on my blog. Reasons for not writing are many, some i will share.

Well the ongoing delivery in the project is still under tremendous pressure and with go-live planned this may it seems that we may be able to make it just in time. My blood pressure level went down and i lost my peaceful sleep because of too much of stress.

Personal front - can't share details now but some pleasant and some not so pleasant things has happened to occupy my already busy schedule, though i am not complaining.

There are travel plans which probably may eventually materialize next week. I shall be in Singapore for two months. Not that i want to go but then circumstances and commitment is leading this decision.

I am planning to be on vacation for two weeks in the month of may which will probably give me some peace hopefully but then that's the hope which i am counting on.

Somehow i am utilizing my writing skills on SDN by writing blogs which are being appreciated by some. This wasn't a planned adventure though but came out good. Hopefully more people will read it and post comments on it.

There are some impending decisions in May which i will take. It may be extreme but then i have to draw a line somewhere.

Such is Life!

2011-01-09T15:33:00.000+05:30

9th January 2011
Gurgaon, India

It's winters again in Northern part of India and the weather is chilly to say the least. Untill last year the most difficult part of the winters to me was to get up in the morning for Office and weekends were only half day, but it has changed now.

All of a sudden since past few days i am up at around 6 AM in the morning each day and after that no Sleep!! It's bizzare but i am going through it. To make matter worse my Blood Pressure level has been on the lower side owing to too much of breakfast skipping over the years.

When your BP is low you feel dull and lazy and you want to sleep but when you can't get enough sleep then it's a sign of stress levels shooting up and that's exactly what has happened to me. A year has gone by and the stress doesn't seems to lower down a bit.

Under this condition i can't take sedatives for it will lower BP level:(( What a difficult situation i am in!!

PS: Don't worry, be happy!!

New Year wishes

2011-01-01T22:50:00.000+05:30

2010 has finally ended and 2011 has started today.
Wish you all a very happy new year full of life.

In retrospect i would say that year gone by was full of activites all round and at no point of the year i had time for relaxation for get leisure. I took only 3 days of leave and was in office on all working days and also on some weekends owing to Project demands.

It all started with creation of a new team and me playing central part in it. Right from training, coahing, mentoring and on job hand holding, brainstorming, technical analysis and also in build activities, i was involved in all of it. At later point of time i was also involved in QA activities which proved to be crucial.

People Management is something which i learned while execution of the Project and i must say it wasn't easy, handling a team of almost 15 members, it took a while for me to get hold of the situation. During mid year i also witnessed chaos of highest degree and somehow came over it (Can't go into details). The chaos which i experienced was more like a moment of truth for me, an enlightenment. Probably no experience from hereon would be a surprize!!

September was the month when appraisal ratings were made public and i got promoted but i wasn;t happy because the cost is rather too high. People would not agree with this statement but that's the truth and must be told.

October was the month when the critical Go-Live of the Project was achieved. It was sigh of relief for me, a moment of temporary relaxation. It all went very soon as i was involved in Post go live activities and the planning for next Phase.

December saw hightened escalations yet again and somehow the viscious cycle has started yet again!

The Pharaoh

2010-12-26T01:04:00.001+05:30

25th December, 2010
Gurgaon, India

Recently finished reading "The Pharaoh" by Manfredi and i have already read the famous Alexander series by him so i knew what was coming my way. True to his reputation of a great story teller and a narator, Manfredi weaves yet another masterpiece written in such an eloquent and lucid way that it leaves you mesmerising.

I had no clue of the history of Israel and after reading this masterpiece i am so curious to get to know all the details about it. I talked to few people with whom i share my literature belief and they told me that Christianity, Islam and Hebrew religion are interconnected.

Probably in the new year i will read "O jerusalem" by Dominique Lapierre and Larry Collins which has been prescribed by one of my dear friend whose opinion i really count.

Somehow i was about to sum up my year long experiece but that i will do in a separate blog, it's rather too much that i have seen this year and gained wisdom which proabably is the learning of a lifetime. Professioanly, no news from nowonwards, probably, be any surprize.

With that belief, i wish you all a Merry Christmas, be with your near and dear ones and try to be happy, if not then please try to make them happy because happiness is really evasive these days.

Friday Fury

2010-12-10T22:56:00.001+05:30

10th December 2010
Gurgaon, India

Again a very chaotic day full of unnecessary escalations. It started on a very pleasant note with one of my very close senior becoming proud father early morning.I thought that probably today is a very happy day but i was wrong, drastically wrong. As the day progressed it all unfolded in unnecessary escalations on the quality deliverables.

I got the bashing for no fault of mine. I tried to explain but was snubbed, so i decided to remain silent though internally i was rather frustrated. It seems to me that i am wasting my time and energy which could perhaps be utilized in much better way elsewhere.

Later in the day i got an email saying that the same very senior has quit the organisation and today is his last day!! Now that's THE NEWS!

SAP TechED Bangalore 2010

2010-12-04T15:04:00.000+05:30

4th December 2010
Gurgaon

Yesterday i came back after attending SAP TechED Bangalore. It was truly an amazing show.
Thank you all for making it wondefull. Of all the people i met i must thank Craig and Arvind with whom i shared great insight.

New Terminal

2010-11-30T16:19:00.000+05:30

30th November 2010
T3 Terminal IGI Airport, New Delhi

The new terminal which has started domestic flights is huge by any means! Of all experiences that i had on all airports this one is really very big. For the first time i am witnessing that a capacity is underutilise in India and that's an achievement by itself.

This new terminal is swany and has all facilities be it a book shop, medicine, eatieries, coffee , gift shop and what not! I must say "I am loving it!".

Had an easy day today...moring meetings...status calls and that's it. So it's bye for now from Delhi and will report tomorrow from Bangalore with more happenings on TechED.

Verifying the past

2010-11-29T23:11:00.000+05:30

29th November 2010

Gurgaon India

If someone tries to verify your past (Personally or Professionally), how would you react to it? It feels really very strange, rather annoying. For the past week there are attempts being made to know my professional past. People really wants to know whether i have really worked on what i do claim.

On one side it's fine on one side because there are lot many who don't know anything yet claim to be the SME!! Sometimes i really wonder what the heck i am doing in midst of all this and whether i should seriously venture out before the system gets past me.

Tomorrow i am travelling to Bangalore for SAP TechED 2010, let's see what is in store. Hope Bangalore will not disappoint me. With that hope signing off!!

Weekend Ending!

2010-11-28T22:36:00.000+05:30

28th November 2010
Gurgaon, India

I wished this weekend to be longer, i don't know why! Though i have nothing in particular to do but still having one more day off would have been a done deal. Half of Saturday and half of Sunday was used up in being a good host to my cousin who came for a visit.

Home!

2010-11-27T19:38:00.001+05:30

27th November 2010
Gurgaon, 2010

Turning homely these days. With no one at home i am trying my luck in all sort of activities. I am making tea, breakfast, lunch, evening nikka nikka peg and dinner all by myself. Moreover i did my laundry as well!!

Guys, if you do not know how to cook then it's high time you must learn it. It's a great stress buster, if you are cooking just for yourself and not under any strain.

Bright and Sunny Day!!

2010-11-27T11:59:00.000+05:30

27th November

Gurgaon, India

What a bright and sunny morning after two days of chilling foggy climate here in Gurgaon, Sunlight is a bliss in winters!!

Unnecessary Esclations!

2010-11-26T23:31:00.002+05:30

26 November 2010
Gurgaon, India

My day started today with an escalation meting which was completely uncalled for. This is becoming a rather routine affair these days and here i am in between of all this mess which has been imposed on me. How earnestly i wished to move out if this artificial situation well crafted by some of the most idiot people i am working with.

After the meeting my head started to spin a bit and probably because of the cold i had a severe headache. It was at lunch time that i started feeling dizzy. I also had to attend Lean six sigma meeting (What a waste!!).

Poor me having tough time these days!

Thank You!

2010-11-25T23:04:00.000+05:30

25 November 2010
Gurgaon, India

Life will never be the same again. As we are about to witness a new year the memories of this year would be the one which will be instilled in me for a long time to come. To wash away what i have been through this year particularly will be a tough job by all means.

Professionally & Personally, everything combined, i guess it's rather too much in a single year for a person like me. I had to take everything as it was coming and absorb it with full dignity. It's only few people with whom i could get some amount of relief and i respect those people very much. It really matters to me.

Thank you.

Weekend!

2010-11-21T22:28:00.001+05:30

This weekend i finished lots of pending things on my thingsdotodolist.txt

To start with i went for Gurzaarish on friday night itself, i must admit that i really liked it. It's more like a theatre performance rather then a routine bollywood stuff, sth which i prefer. Really admired Aishwarya's stunning performance and Hrithik performance was as effortless as possible. He is The complete artist in Indian Film Fraternity. All the songs have beautiful lyrics, though not the music.

Saturday - Went for Harry Potter, though i am not a huge fan of HP but i went just for the heck of a movie. It came out to be good. The much awaited and required car servicing was also done, Thank you Mr. Manpreet for your friendly advice.

Sunday - Went for some serious shopping again and had a hectic buying.

All in all it was time consuming weekend. TechED travel is confirmed and i will be in bangalore on 1, 2 & 3 December.

Future!!

2010-11-15T22:40:00.000+05:30

15th November 2010
Gurgaon

Today's day went in too many futile meetings and discussions. I am not sure how much of my time is being utilized for some meaningful cause, but i know for sure that there is a considerable amount of time being wasted in futile activities.

As some wise men had said "Time and tide waits for no men!", i think i should rather indulge myself in more meaningful task at hand and thus save myself from the increasing frustration level.

There are very few opportunities professionally that charms me these days, probably because mostly i am done with what i wanted to do in Professional life, whatever remains will also be done soon. It's time to plan for retirement!!

So called stakeholders!

2010-11-15T00:05:00.000+05:30

Stakeholders will be in town in the last week of November for celebrations!! Highly bothered least concerned category!

Children's Day!

2010-11-15T00:03:00.000+05:30

14th November 2010
Gurgaon

Today i cooked my breakfast, Lunch and dinner at home. I did laundry, washed my shoes, shaved slept for a while, watched movies. I must say that i thoroughly enjoyed it!!

If you have all the set up at home then it becomes very easy and comfortable. Though i am out of home from the past seven years and i hardly cooked in between these years but today i just tried and things fell in the right places.

Tea in the morning was just fantastic because i like strong tea with very less Milk, something which only i can understand and hence make. I tried my hand at coffee as well but that wasn't good!! But rest of the meals were perfect! Heaven!!

Festival Season !!

2010-11-09T19:03:00.000+05:30

Festival season came and gone as well. After a year i took 2 leaves so as to be with my Family after a long gap. Luckily no one objected, though i didn't cared this time even if they would have!!

My pain is not ready to subside. It seems that i have to take sometime off and take rest somewhere up the hills, but when will that happen is something even i am waiting for desperately.

Though i am not too sure if i will get last week of december off but i would like to be with myself on New Year Day!!

Pain Pain Pain!!

2010-10-31T21:19:00.000+05:30

If your rheumatoid factor is positive it means that your body is prone to Arthritis. There is no cure, pain is something which you must become habitual to though the intensity may vary.

Backache would be severe and there would be cramps under shoulders. All joints would start paining and the whole nomenclature of the body will be under severe pressure.

Lawrence of Arabia!

2010-10-31T19:46:00.000+05:30

The theme of this beautiful classic movie is "Battles are the virtue of the Young which they must win or die so that older generation can play politics".

Corruption looming large!

2010-10-24T13:35:00.000+05:30

There is a great tussle between the Development Authorities & Indian Passport officials to surpass each other in setting records of highest degrees of corruption.

Last week i went to Delhi Passport office and was surprised to see virtually zero management. It was working like a Zoo, even a Zoo is better managed then that place.

Somewhere in the rotten process my passport has got stuck, now i am not too sure when and how will i get my passport renewed.

This country needs people who are accountable and processes which are well managed.

Status Update - 90% done

2010-10-23T20:14:00.002+05:30

The feeling has been growing since some time that whatever i wanted to do professionaly or rather in software industry has been more or less been achieved.

Having said so there is only few things left after which there would be virtually nothing interesting left for me to do here.

Time for some straight thinking.

Gone Live!

2010-10-19T22:54:00.000+05:30

It gives me immense pride and utmost pleasure in announcing that we have gone live! (18th October 2010). This date i will never forget in my entire lifetime for the sheer reason of all that has gone in meeting it.

Lot of hard work from my team members, a lot of personal sacrifice, pain, agony, laughter, banters and what not has gone into it. At one time i was apprehensive about whether we would be able to see the end of tunnel but it was Team morale which ultimately won the game!

We lost some of key team members during the run but i do believe that they will be happy for us as well. In any case i am in touch with them and do miss them on all occasion.

Tech-Ed

2010-10-17T22:47:00.000+05:30

SAP TechED is one event which i haven't been to though i wanted to be a part of it once. It's a fact that i do not like to attend it just for the sake of it, so this year i tried to prepare myself for a Session. Even though my schedule was hectic still i did prepared a business case with presentation.

But then there is a bureaucracy and i am not sure whether my case would see the end of light. All i needed was a bit of support but then support is brought these days with diplomacy involved where i would definitely loose.

Let's see if tomorrow for i would come to know the state of my case!

A smile a day!

2010-10-17T22:40:00.000+05:30

The North Indian festival season has just started.It will go on till the end of Diwali and will then extend beyond New Year where it will coincide with Christmas celebration.

Few things which i like about this season is about my team mates who are happy taking vacations and when they come back they have whole lot of enthusiasm on their faces. They bring sweets and local delicacies which i really enjoy though i do not relish sweets at home.

Above all it makes me feel happy to see smile on their faces. It's more then one can ask for or even wish for. It's a bit philosophical but life is like that.

CWG Over!

2010-10-13T22:38:00.000+05:30

Finally CWG will end tomorrow!! Phew!!

There will be lots of introspection, more of finger pointing and mudslinging after it. The very hyper media will also play the role of judge and will also indulge in cheap publicity which we all know.

The good that came out this game is that we came to realize our potential in conducting something of this much magnitude and standards. Next time such an event takes place here we would be better prepared, hopefully.

During all 11 days there was no rush of traffic on Gurgaon roads which was really pleasing after the disaster of trial runs. It was really overwhelming to see people follow lane driving and not changing lanes frequently. All in all i must say that the event went well with 100 medal in our kitty!

Mr. Kalmadi, even with all the pitfalls that you have been or will be blamed, thanx for the games! Ms. Dixit, full points to you for your last minute efforts in ensuring that things fall in place. Moreover i would that people of NCR for their patience.

LMP done!

2010-10-12T23:49:00.000+05:30

After the initial hiccups that i underwent yesterday, it was still a smooth presentation that i delivered today. I was not in best of my moods, was a bit down as well, not prepared at all but even after all this i somehow managed to deliver it though i was fumbling.

Few thing have to be cleared within a month!

Presentation!

2010-10-11T22:41:00.000+05:30

Tomorrow i have a presentation on LMP in front of some big shots and i haven't prepared for it. Today's day went in all sorts of weekend drama and i wasn't able to concentarte on work.

Irrespective of everything i will give my best shot tomorrow and let's see what happens from there. It seems that back channel politics has started and poor me have to sell LMP by any means!

Go-Live

2010-10-10T21:35:00.000+05:30

Last week before the much awaited go-live!! This one is real interesting as it would be held in phases and the first one is on 18th October, after that 22 and then the final one on 28th October.

All kinds of memories attached to this Project and at one point i vowed to myself that i will make myself available till go-live and on 18th i may live upto my vow. It's amazing considering the events that i have witnessed all along.

Thanks to all my team members who worked tirelessly with me under extreme conditions that they were subjected to and specially to those who believed in me.

Old Blogs

2010-10-09T23:39:00.000+05:30

All hue and cry over Racist comments from Australis yet again!! Don't know what exactly has transpired in Australian Society or is it just a Media issue. All in all there has been sudden surge of India's reputation at World stage and hence there is an attempt to announce the arrival by certain sections of media.

Over the past history is filled with Indians suffering inside and outside India because of variety of reasons. We didn't have economics in place, we were poor, uneducated, over dependent on others, corrupt, and over populated! And the world was shinning giving us Doles so that we can eat our daily meal.

Due to the hard work and some policy changes and the dramatic change in the knowledge industry we, Indians, have made our mark, slowly but surely. We are no more "poor" and suddenly the dependence over other nation has changed into partnerships. We are respected around the globe for our value system. We have proven our mettle in IT. We are respected in Space exploration. We have World number one team in Test Cricket. We have Sachin Tendulkar. CWG is happening in India. A lot of global Indians are heading Multinationals. Our economy has survived recession better then any country, even surpassed China.

Our spending have increased. We have suddenly become the darling of US and UK. So it's highly unlikely that we are being pampered by the "Global Powers" of today. The meaningful tendency of Media is go overboard in announcing this and hence the noise!

Hali Free Indian Media!!!

CWG!

2010-09-28T00:58:00.000+05:30

Two months ago there would have been people who would have love to go to CWG, they were even planning for tickets and things like that. But thanks to the "Independent" media India has and the rampant corruption with no accountability has left people of India with no option but to remain in their house till CWG ends!

Philosophy Check!

2010-09-17T23:53:00.002+05:30

It's doesn't matter whether the glass is half filled or half empty, what matters is to whom does the glass belongs to!

2010-09-17T23:52:00.000+05:30

Interesting discussion on the topic, "It's the circumstances which makes People good/bad otherwise they are good".

Well, i would say that every person has his share of goodness and badness. He cannot be 100% good and 100% bad either.

Go-Live!

2010-09-15T23:07:00.000+05:30

Go-Live date is approaching fast like a timer...tick tock ....tick tock!!!

Sunday Mania!

2010-09-14T23:10:00.000+05:30

This Sunday i went to Noida to meet my good old friend. As soon as i started from my home i was caught by heavy rains! Suddenly i felt that i am at the wettest place on earth since it's raining heavily in my part of the world.

There was news flashing on every 24/7 news channel that Yamuna is overflowing and that there is a flood like situation in Delhi and that the old Delhi bridge has been closed for Traffic and i was caught between the commitment that i made and with Nature's fury cascaded by News channels!

This all was dramatic though but i still ventured out and took the metro from Gurgaon. Best thing that has happened to NCR is Delhi Metro and there should not be any iota of doubt in it. It's crowded but it still is the best bet if you want to avoid roads. (Drive yourself and you will come to know what i am talking about).

Well Yamuna is above the danger mark, that any one will understand because of the heavy water inflow from Haryana, there is no rocket science needed for that!! Shut Up you Aaj Tak and et all...

But i must say it was real good that i didn't stopped in Gurgaon!! Thanks Dhruv for those lovely moments, i know i should have come earlier but then you know i couldn't!!

Festivities!

2010-09-11T23:36:00.000+05:30

India is famous for festivities and that to Norther part of full of it. Being a North Indian and born and brought up mostly in northern part of it, i also developed taste for my favorite festivals from the list of it.

From my childhodd i am very scared of holi, not that i don't play, but i am over cautious which spoils the fun. The color that they use went inside my nostril once and i had tough time breathing and since then i make sure that i don't overdo it.

Dussera is something which i remember for the Ramlila which use to happne in Ramlial Maidan and it was real fun. Though we use to go only once or twice with Parents still it had some memories. Later i stopped going for some reasons. Would love to eat chat with friends....if that ever materailises.

Diwaali, one festival which i use to wait for every year for i use to love burning crackers. The fun was to keep your stock till the very last! I use to enjoy it..every bit of it...not too sure whether i still have the same zeal with crackers after the green drive!! but the smell of sulphur when we woke up next morning...

Ganesh Chaturthi, this is one festival which we never celebrated at home. It has a huge following in my maternal grandparents home but then...

Some more festivals are there which i will update later....

Tough Times!!!

2010-09-08T23:13:00.000+05:30

Don't really have a clue as to whether my time has gone or has rather started now...These days are full of confusion..utter chaos..though not visible outside...because of my demeanor!!

Too many uncertainties yet again! Last time it happened in December but then things sorted out and i thought that this would continue and i really don't have to worry about. Well things are not what it looked like...They have changed drastically ...and all in against us!

Phew...who will support us...but then the fight is headon!!!

SuperPower

2010-09-05T23:11:00.000+05:30

While driving aimlessly today i just ventured into Landmark Mall again, probably because i was feeling rather lonely today evening. I was taken aback when i saw a huge rush inside which otherwise is not so frequented and hence is one of my fav hideout, i do not like crowded places.

Well it was Landmark Sale Time!! Why do they have to have it today only, when i just wanted a peaceful place to spend sometime. Anyhow, when i am amidst the books i am generally lost in my own created world. So i got immeresed yet again and bought this book from Ragahv Bahl, "Superpower, The amazing race between China's Hare and India's Tortoise".

It's a comparison between the past and current economic history, must be good!!

Teacher's Day

2010-09-04T21:27:00.001+05:30

Tomorrow is teacher's day. I had some very fond memories of this day if i go back to my school time, what glorious and beautiful days!!

We use to enact our favourite teachers in front of our class in full glory of our Principal and those very teachers. No one ever dared to enact Principal Madam, well she was very strict and no one dared to take any chance :)

One we prepared filter coffee and distributed to the whole class, now how did we arrange all the ingredients in still a very secret which i hold with myself.

I really wish that all my teachers for whom i have greatest repect, lead a happy life.

Leaves (Sick & Earned)

2010-09-02T23:33:00.000+05:30

A new cycle and some of my sick leaves got expired on 31st August. I wanted to avail some of the leaves and take a vacation but then this work is not getting finished and what's worse is that there seems to be no respite either.

Under such circumstances all i could take is a day or two off and include weekends to make it look like a vacation!! Poor me!

2010-09-01T22:23:00.001+05:30

Listening to "Sway" song by Michael Buble, i realized how time has moved on and i still can relate to this very song which made me feel good sometime back.

No idea what so special with it but still it made me smile, smile after perhaps a very long time indeed. Happiness these days is not so easy to get in. Even after full day of hard work it's still elusive. The environment is such, can't help it either.

Someday, may be, will come which would be the Saviour. Until then "Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore hold me close, sway me more."

Road Wide Open!

2010-08-25T23:48:00.001+05:30

Well it crossed limits today! I went to Udyog Vihar to drop my brother and thought probably it will take relatively lesser time then Monday (It took me mammoth 1.5 hours to cover 8 kms) as it wasn't raining much, just drizzling. But much to my surprise it took me 2 hours!!!

I just can't understand why we live in such apathy! Why is that roads are being swept away by rains? Why no traffic policemen was appointed when virtually every vehicle bulldozed into each other from all possible direction? Why there is no Maintenance of inner roads? Why is that Maruti and Ranbaxy whose offices are there on the side of that Road, esp Maruti whose trucks uses that road maximum and is responsible for such a condition, put efforts as a CSR initiative towards it?

If my tax payment can't even provide me road/electricity/water then what' the purpose of electing the Government? Where s Congress and where is BJP and where is Mr. Prakash Karat?

22 August 2010

2010-08-22T22:45:00.000+05:30

Festival season in Northern part of India is about to start.I can smell the euphoria in my team as well but then i can also see the enthusiasm towards the festivities dying. No more we are in celebrative mode, shoulders drooping down, life seems to have moved out of track.

Still was not able to see Peepli Live! I must hit the theatres again before monotony hits me big time. I also tried Epicenter today but then the Price of the ticket is too high for me to bear! Anyhow tomorrow is an important day, i must be in office on time.

Good Night cruel world!!

Expectation!

2010-08-21T11:30:00.002+05:30

Don't expect anything from anyone. This world has become rather too selfish for expectations. So called friends, colleagues etc all behaves in such a way that it leads to only one conclusion that this world has lost its glory.

This post may seem to be pessimistic but then the harsh realities of life are not optimistic either too.

Crater Gurgaon

2010-08-21T00:06:00.000+05:30

What a pathetic road infrastructure is in Gurgaon! If one subtracts NH 8 from here it will lead to such a low quality of roads. It's been not a peak rainy season and almost all roads have crumbled down. They all look like a lunar surface, full of craters!

Udyong vihar route is super runied. It seems that Maruti doesn't take resposnsibility as that of Infosys! In Bangalore all IT companies have payed to make the elevated highway and they also support the Traffic Police that is employed on the way to Electronic city. Here everything comes to standstill once it starts raining.

I am really worried about the pathetic quality of Gurgaon roads.

Fire!

2010-08-19T22:10:00.000+05:30

Aspirations!! In our world there are way to many aspiration and way too less budget for it. Not too sure what this will lead to but certainly there will be bickering and noise.

All while i was on the same side but this time i will be on the other side of the table. I have no idea how will i be able to quench the fire which will rise after a week, for all i can think of is that "we didn't start the fire, it was always buring since the world's been turning!"

May Lord Jesus Christ bless humanity with eternam peace.

18th August 2010

2010-08-18T22:13:00.000+05:30

Too messy a day today! I wish i could rest for a while but then life must go on. My health is deteriorating fast as my energy levels are depleting. I wish that this project gets over soon giving me some breathing space.

Everyone has taken a day off or vacation but it's me who is yet to find time for myself. One day i will also take the much needed break and will go to hills and rest myself in Peace!

With that belief signing off. Keep the faith untill then.

Monday Blues!

2010-08-16T22:28:00.000+05:30

Monday office is box full of surprizes and mostly not so pleasant ones! Old team mate returned today after his marriage and i gave him all the updates on what had happened in his absence.

Mouth ulcers giving me tough time, it hurts!! Probably a day or more and i will be back, hopefully. Yesterday i also met one of my college mate after a very long time. He is in gurgaon for a fortnight for some official training at MDI (Lucky Chap!).

Some observation which many people have shared is whenever a person comes from southerned part of India to North he is really mesmerised by the "Beauty", pun intended:)

Rain Rain come Again!

2010-08-15T17:11:00.000+05:30

Rain kept it promise over Delhi today yet again as they did in 1947 on the same day. For me it was just another lazy day marked with meeting with corrupt government officials, dozing off here and there and trying to struggle with Mouth ulcers which have, too an extent, screwed my happiness. Not able to talk properly, even small intake of food make me jump!!

I wanted to see Peepli Live today, but going for it alone doesn't feel good.

Independence day

2010-08-15T00:53:00.002+05:30

Independence day, yet again!!Not too sure that i was waiting for this day but yes some years back i also use to wait for this day to come. Life changes rather too fast.

I could recollect my school days where we use to do Parade on this very day and for which we use to Practice for a month. I still remember the thum thum of that Drum and all that white dress we use to wear.

There use to be a choir songs and what not we all participated with great enthu! And in the end we use to get toffees with Laddu. That was accomplishment after half day long activities.

When Principal Madam use to hoist the National Flag we use to sing National Anthem, those were the days!!! I still do remember.

I do believe that we pass on the same fervor to the next generation. With that belief signing off.

Good Night!

2010-08-11T23:29:00.001+05:30

It rained last night and also today. Weather was pleasant and i could feel the cool breeze oozing in from the window. I wish some good news might as well pour in!

With that belief Good Night to the "Busy" world.

Lost!

2010-08-08T17:23:00.000+05:30

In this March i started looking for an apartment in Gurgaon. I roamed here and there and looked every nook and corner of the city for two weeks and then came to some conclusion. But i couldn't settle the deal because of few unnecessary issues which should have been avoided.

Now today i went to HDFC Home loan fair and here comes the snowball, the prizes have zoomed past beyond my reach!!

Learning: Don't wait for approvals if you are getting a deal, just do it!

Hope is good thing!

2010-08-07T11:45:00.000+05:30

Slept at 3:00 AM in the morning, don't know why i have lost my slumber. Disturbed state of mind can lead you to disastrous consequences. I wish i could sleep full day and night today so that i can be fresh from next week but that's just a wish.

Lets see what tomorrow has in store for me, though i am not that optimistic still hope is a good thing perhaps the best of thing!

Coming back to Life!

2010-08-07T01:15:00.000+05:30

These days i am not with myself, i mean such a terrible mood i have become rather too blunt!! Things have changed drastically on all fronts and perhaps i am not able to give enough time to myself.

Too much of pressure situation has done all damage perhaps. I wish i could get a break and i could run away from here to some remote place.

Probably time has come to take some tough measures to bring back my life back on track before it goes into irrevocable trajectory.

Line of Fire!

2010-08-05T22:27:00.000+05:30

In retrospect everyone becomes Shakespeare but the decision one took when he was in the line of fire are the ones that really matter. We have all been through this phase at some point of time, the learnings from it should be well preserved for future.

Life is full of situations wherein you need to make choices. At that time close your eyes and pay utmost attention to what your heart says and you will come out as a winner.

Official Party!

2010-08-04T00:07:00.000+05:30

Tomorrow we have an official Party. After 2.5 months of hard work welcome break for some but not for me. It seems that the cost of this is very high for me. Tomorrow i will be a different person all together. Not that i don't like fun & frolic but it's just that i am rather not very interested in all what is going on!

So it would be a drink and usual gyan.

Movement!

2010-08-02T23:06:00.002+05:30

It's a ramp down phase so some of the team will be cut and team members will be rolled off. It feels so sad at this point of juncture, esp to me. From the very beginning we all are working together and then some people have to leave, the very thought makes me uncomfortable.

It took lot of effort to come upto the level where we are today and then suddenly all this!!! My wishes to all those who helped me and others with all the hard work.

Thank you Guys!

Kabhi Kabhi Once again!

2010-08-02T01:08:00.000+05:30

Really loved the below lines. Suddenly they fit in my real life.

Kabhi Raste mein mil jao, to katrakar guzar jaana

Hame iss tarah taknaa jaise pehchaana nahi tumne

Hamara Zikra jab aaye to yun anjaan ban jaana,

ke jaise naam sunkar bhi hame jaana nahi tumne!

Salute to Rafi Saab!

2010-08-01T13:56:00.000+05:30

Today early morning (2:00 AM - 3:00 AM to be precise), i was listening to Rafi uninterrupted. It was so soothing after a hectic day that an hour went past like minutes!

All the songs were my favorites. Such is the golden voice of Rafi Saab that it leaves you mesmerized every time.

Life in a Car!

2010-08-01T00:08:00.001+05:30

So amidst the lovely weather that we all North Indians yearn for, i packed all that have in my car and was on the road. I was driving comparatively very slowly just to get the feeling. I also turned on the FM just to make it more melodramatic!

My car completed 10000 kms of travel yerterday! What a day!

I don't know how many times i have shifted my residential address and at all times i promise myself that perhaps next time i will be moving to my permanent residence only to disappoint myself later. The more i am trying the more i am going far away from the point of settlement. It's like a mirage!

It's midnight and precisely 1st of august 2010. With the beginning of New Month Good Night to all.

Shift

2010-07-30T20:55:00.000+05:30

Tomorrow once again i will be shifting my residence location. It seems that i am more or less living a nomadic life. Not too sure whether i like it but the need of the hour is to fix few things and getting a permanent abode is in that "10 things before i die" list.

Hope is a good thing perhaps the best of thing!!

Different Notions

2010-07-29T21:26:00.001+05:30

Not too sure whether everyone have the same kind of feeling or is it that i have a different notion. It happens that when you feel that everything that you are doing is correct and is for the betterment of others as well, there will be some poor souls who will question your belief and ensure that they screw your otherwise happiness.

Some morons think that if you can't convince them then you are wrong.What a waste of time!!Life has more important things to do rather then doing all this. Somehow we should avoid getting into this trap.

The above activity had consumed most of my time past two months and almost every time i came out sulking! The frequency of such meetings has reduced but still it's going on and on and i am not too sure when will it end.

Tough Time!

2010-07-28T22:56:00.000+05:30

Past two months i have been really busy with my professional commitments. So much busy that i wasn't even able to read my own blog forget updating it!! The events that had happened during the course have made me think, so much so that i am seriously thinking of moving into an alternate profession though i am not decided yet.

It's not that i have not anticipated this earlier but somehow situation went out of control too sudden and the support wasn't there. Hence i had to spend longer working hours and working weekends which essentially screwed my happiness and made me sulky to an extent.

Things will be changing pretty soon after the bubble burst, i can already read the signs now. Somehow i still wish those ugly events were avoidable and should have been arrested but having said that i would like to forget and move on so that i am at peace with myself. Rest doesn't matter.

It's been ages since i have taken a vacation now. I should take it now and go to some place where i can resume my pending work. Last time it was Mussorie and was a very enriching experience with my meeting with Mr. Ruskin Bond. If things went fine then i may travel to Mussorie once again. It's a very good place to be in atleast for people like me who just wants to run away from the chaotic city life.

The ideas that i started writing on in Mussorie are still very much prevalent and that makes me feel that they should be given due credit. Probably within a month i will again resume in full flow.

With that wish i would like to sign off for today.

Paradox!

2010-07-16T22:01:00.001+05:30

A moment ago i was thinking about deleting this blog itself out of sheer frustration and that's why i just logged into after a very long time. Now i am amazed to find some unknown visitors reading my blog, it makes me feel happy!

To add more onto it, i just completed the movie "It's a wonderful life"!! Now shouldn't i believe in Angels? Rings a bell, isn't it! And as the saying goes, whenever a bell rings some angel got the wings! Haha! This is unbelievable, i am loving it.

Now , i am not going to delete this blog. Moreover in few days i will let the community know why i was not writing and what exactly is my reason for the condition that i am into. Till then keep the faith.

Confused Me!

2010-05-02T21:26:00.001+05:30

Sometimes i feel like calling all my past, present & future friends...wherever they may be...i just want to talk to them...the urge is such strong!!! On the contrary sometimes i feel like living in a hermitage...secluded from anyone & everyone. I just do not understand what sort of extreme i am living in!!!

I need to break free!!!

Idiot!

2010-05-01T22:28:00.000+05:30

During the "3-Idiots" controversy, i followed Chetan Bhagat on twitter. I also tried to judge for myself his stance. But sooner i realized that all this was propaganda, a well thought out campaign to up sell his book, Five Point someone.

He has huge fan base in those who are first time readers and also among those who want to look "Intellectual" by holding any book for that matter, mind you that his books are well within reach.

After the realization i stopped following him on twitter or any other medium. I still do maintain that his work is no piece of Literature lest somebody claims that he/she loves literature written by Bhagat! It's also in news that his name is in "Most influential People". I wonder whom had he influenced and on what!

Chennai Trip

2010-04-03T23:42:00.000+05:30

I went to chennai on official trip of two days. My assignment this time was to deescalate the Performance parameter of the project which i had to review. Along with me there there was one more lady from Mumbai. We two combined were named as the Task Force.

Day one went in understanding the business process and meeting with people. It's an advantage for me as i like interacting. The lady from Mumbai is a very senior person and has great experience. We two were really working as a team as we made a plan of action for two days and discussed in detail as to what is expected out of us and what would be the deliverables from our side.

The team in Chennai is very good, as they are working on the same project for more then 2 years now. They helped us in all possible ways. We took traces and we did the code review and then set the recommendation along with the best practice methodology to be used.

After a hectic two days we departed to airport and i had a lengthy discussion with my Task Force team mate. I am really in awe of her, even after spending so much time in Industry she is so down to earth and so very normal. A wonderful person, a rare person indeed!

Wish she could shift to Gurgaon and then we can work together! People like her are very rare.

Project Management

2010-03-21T20:48:00.000+05:30

Today was the final day for training on Project Management. It was a 3 day training and a lot of Gyan was given, lots of nomenclature unearthed. In summation all i would say is that Project Management is a mix of Art and Science, it becomes mismanagement when one of the two is missing!

Though i am not in awe of any manager as such till date, it was good to know the constraints under which they work on. They cannot work in freestyle manner lest things go wrong they are the sole person accountable and the leadership will grill them till their last nerve!!

At the same time i had the privileged time to work with gifted Manager's as well. They goofed up big time and i have no clue how they are still surviving, probably they use arts to Save themselves and using Science to execute the Project Part.

It was fantastic to know the Powers and the tools which one gets access to when he become the Manager, but as they say "With great power comes greater responsibilities", it should be used with great responsibilities..

The Team!

2010-03-20T23:28:00.000+05:30

Creation consumes lot of energy. It's not an easy job by any standard. In retrospect one can always write literature but when you are in the line of fire, and actually doing it, at that time the decisions you make makes whole lot of difference to the next generation!

Putting things in the perspective, currently i am making a team which is my third such venture. I have done this twice in my previous Organisations. Though both the teams do not exists anymore, but that is something that can be debated some other day.

The bottom line is that the discharge of energy is quite huge, it takes a toll on the person doing it. It may be a thankless job as well. Once it had happened to me as well where i was at the far end! At the same time you meet so many people and in turn some becomes close friends, and some friends for life! It is such a beautiful relation to be invested into.

In my endeavor to create teams i have always made sure that i am able to connect to them, be able to talk to them and involve myself in their happiness as well as sorrows. I do not follow any book for this, i do not have any set methodology for this, i just do what my conviction says and moreover i do not care for aftereffects.

I am in touch with people in both the previous teams that i have been part of making, perhaps this time i am going an extra mile just to ensure their better career. Though i am drained out of energy but then these people are also the source of Joy. Imagine a smiling face of your team member, it will brighten your day as well.

The amount of confidence they have in you will give you the respect which nobody can buy!!

Hand Made!

2010-03-03T22:11:00.000+05:30

It's been really very long since i have hand written a letter to anyone! May be the times have changed too fast. Even on festivals we just do away with SMS or a courtesy call. I wonder how Archies business is going on!

Those were the days when Archies Card could come "in a very special way", as the punchline goes and makes you happy! Alas, that was taken by e-card and now just email or SMS.

I think we should once again start this tradition of hand written letters or at least Cards, certain emotions are better expressed in original hand writing.

I had few of the greeting card with me which were given to me long time ago on various occasions and whenever i look at them i go back into the memory lane, and believe me it's a wonderful feeling altogether.

Holi - Festivals of colors

2010-02-25T20:32:00.001+05:30

Holi is associated mainly with colors, but for me the association is more then that. The festival reminds me of colors, water balloons, gujiya, papdi+achaar, Kanji Vade to name a few.

I remember my childhood time when we use to play Holi with great enthusiasm. Neighbors use to visit us in groups and pour color on my parents fully knowing that they are already covered with enuf of it. Sometime they use to color my face as well and i use to run away.

What i do not like is the smell of the colors, it has a pungent smell which i somehow don't like. So most of the time i use to wash my face just after the group was gone.There use to be Pooja at home and then Lunch full of calories. I use to love Aloo kachoris at that time.

It was great fun until sometime later when the whole perspective changed and the fun element went missing and hence i stopped celebrating Holi. Festivities need to be revisited, on a very high priority basis.

What to do!

2010-02-21T22:59:00.000+05:30

After meeting lots of people in last few days i came to some conclusion. In this professional world that we all "live" in, the cut throat competition that we have been exposed to, has made our lives so miserable that it needs immediate attention. Moreover, the irony is, no one seems to be alarmed. With this viscious cycle continuing there is virtually no future! or atleast nothing that i can think of.

This mad mad race, winning at all cost, is taking a hefty toll on one's own personal life as well. People are less happy with what they are getting and more sad for what other are getting!! I mean one should be concerned about him/her self more then the others.

Sad some of my few friends have also got this virus, i am trying hard to explain to them that please do not get into all this. Life is different and do not mess it up just by living it how others wanted you to. Don't live somebody else's life!

Sad...but true...many people have no idea what they will be doing tomorrow? Leave tomorrow they don't have idea about today!!

Notes from Mussoorie - Day 1 cont..

2010-02-17T21:17:00.001+05:30

After initial hiccups i reached Mussoorie today Morning, with completely no idea what is in store for me. This is the least planned trip for me.

It was 11 by the time i reached and then after getting refreshed i opt for some walking aroound the Mall Road just to get the feeling in.

I came back after an hour with the notebook and started to settle. Since there was no planned activity i was enjoying my state of doing nothing.

After finishing late lunch generally i got the feeling as to how would it be if at all i would be able to meet Mr. Ruskin Bond, after all he lives here only! What if i could just sneak into his home and have a small conversation! Embroiled in these thoughts only i ventured to move out in search for the book shop.

It took me only 15 mins to reach and i bought two books, "The room on the roof, Vagrants in the Valley", his very first book and "Notes from a small room", his latest. I asked casually whether he visit here sometime and much to my surprize the owner said that he will be coming here anytime soon!!! This was least expected.

Though i had updated my status in FB "Meeting with Mr. Bond", but i had never even imagined it would come true. There were very few people and all were waiting for him. After sometime he came in his chauffer driven car.

There was no Tamasha, no security guards, no protocols. He was walking and talking like any of us do. Such is his simplicity. I was completely taken aback. He signed on both of the books and i chatted for a while, shared a joke and more sitting just next to him!!!

I came back to my hotel room. After sometime i realised that one of my wish has just been fullfilled. It's been so kind of him to take his time out. I wish i could meet more people like him.

Mussoorie has really been kind to me. Thank you Mussoorie.

Written on 13th Feb just before finishing the wonderful day.

Notes from Mussoorie - Day 1

2010-02-15T21:48:00.000+05:30

It's a clear night full of stars in Mussoorie. The chilly breeze makes me shiver under my spine and somehow i am enjoying it till the core.

Looking down is Dehra valley lit up like a golden jewel. What an amazing tapestry! Amazing view captured by my retina.

The room that i have taken is a reminder of ancient British Era. It's a heritage hotel and well kept one. During morning the Sun wakes you up as you open the window.

Balbir Singh, my room attendent reminds me of British officers who had a personal attendant saying "Haaji Sir" on every possible statement of mine.

I am enjoying my stay! Thank you Mussoorie for being so kind.

Written on 13th Feb 2010

Long Weekend!

2010-02-10T22:35:00.000+05:30

Long weekend approaching yet again and i wasn't prepared as usual. Too many things going and my mind is definitely working overtime so need a break! I checked for available tickets and booked for Dehradun.

It would have been good if i had a company but then i don't want to be in city inspite as well. I am planning to go to Mussorie, a place where i had went during my childhood days once and have some memories to cheer!

Hopefully i would be able to meet Mr. Ruskin Bond who lives there. His stories about Shamli and Dehra are still so fresh. I have absolutely no plans to have any kind of adventure, just want to be there with the nature and sit back and relax..........

Sunday Funday!

2010-02-07T18:52:00.000+05:30

Got a call from old pal today who wanted to meet me. And since i am not "Busy" i agreed! We went to Ambiance Mall, which i guess is one of the biggest Mall in India.

The gentry was beyond expectation, lots to drool on:)) We also did play pool and then came back for Pizza @Dominoes.

In the end it turned out to be good Sunday rather then usual lazy ones!

Current Entity!

2010-02-06T21:29:00.001+05:30

Reading Bertrand Russell these days. The title is "The Conquest of Happiness". This is unique because of two reasons firstly it's not a self help book and second which is symbolically more important is it's no more "In Pursuit of happiness"!! Small change makes lots of difference!

There are two more after this and the next one which i would be reading is "In The Praise of Idleness", now that's something i really want to go in detail! Also recently finished reading "Dabawalas", an interesting book which gives account of how Dabawalas actually functions and what is their USP which makes them a revered Brand around the world!

I bought all these from the World book fair, New Delhi. I wish i had a Library where i would keep my treasured collection but then until that happens me and my books will keep travelling!

Walt Whitman!

2010-02-05T21:39:00.000+05:30

I think i could turn and live with Animals, they are so placid and self contained,

I stand and look at them long and long.

They do not sweat and whine about her condition,

They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,

They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God,

Not one is dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of owning things,

Not one kneels to another, nor to his kind that lived thousnad of years ago,

Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole world.

Lessons from Dabawalas!

2010-02-04T23:28:00.000+05:30

Globalization has put most of us on a frenzy highway. It's not the conscious decision that we had made, it's something we have been put under. Instead on accomplishments we focus more on Speed.

We are under constant threat that somebody will run us over, so we run fast and we keep running. The essence of life is lost.

We are born to win but we are certainly not born to keep racing at all times!

Life in a Tunnel!

2010-01-29T22:32:00.001+05:30

Those 40 mins i would not be able to forget in my entire life. I have renamed it to Life in a tunnel. I had no clue what would happen and what is the procedure. It was all in the hands of the concerned staff. I was afraid after a very long time in my life. After the instruction i was slowly slided inside the tube.

All sort of thoughts started to flow. Personal, Professional, Emotional, Financial and what not! For a moment everything seemed to trivial that i almost felt wretched. I felt like i am a helpless character and the time has come probably, i was thinking about the possibilities of outcome.

Tryst with my destiny!

2010-01-26T00:06:00.002+05:30

What if you come to know today that you have not much to live and in a few days or months it’s over! Would you not make certain necessary adjustments?

In windows term it means BSD- Blue screen of Death. But unlike windows there are no fixes in life. Think what exactly you mean by when you say you are alive! “Sirf saans lena bhar to jeena nahi hai!”. Life is for living, live the way you want it to be. Don’t try to emulate anyone, instead try creating your own space.

Everyone cried after “Anand” died but we still don’t learn anything from it. Why? We are too involved in this world and then it was just a film, it doesn’t really happen! Point taken but with a minor change – It doesn’t really happen to everyone!

We are too busy with our Office, Projects, deadlines, promotions, relations blah blah blah…!It’s really very hard to put yourself in the character of “Anand” and then live. Not everyone is that courageous.

There is only one life to be lived so don’t be so serious that you forget to enjoy. There is no heaven and there is no hell outside this very earth. It all depends on the situation we are in. Heaven and Hell both are created and destroyed on day-2day need basis.

If you don’t like a person or a situation please try to avoid it rather then hate. Save your time and energy for meeting the situation and people whom you would like. Try indulging yourself in those activities which you like rather then those which are imposed on you. Remember you don’t have to give explanation to anyone about how you want to live your own life. Your time is not infinite. Spent it with great care.

The Gyan is just a short depiction of learning which I got after "tryst with my destiny" which I wish I could share….but then let’s leave it...

.....

2010-01-15T21:54:00.003+05:30

There are so many thing that one wants to do, wants to say, wants to hear...Alas!!! Travesty of life makes even the smallest wish difficult and the difficult most the simplest.

As time passes, people tend to forget or rather put all past feelings in an envelop and forget it like an old cassette. It's like the cassette was good at one time. It's past, forgotten!

I tried to "ping" an old friend but all in vain...tried calling another one and the call was into the waiting mode!!!An old friend turned up in Delhi but then he too will have more important adventures then meeting this poor old man! Requested few writings from a friend...even that wasn't done even after a "promise"!!!Wow...what a friend circle i have got!

Need to do something now!!

To B or not to B?

2010-01-10T21:35:00.000+05:30

Relationships are of complex demeanor. They can be source of energy if going good and can as well churn all energy out of you if gone sour!

Be it personal or be it in professional arena one always tries to have good relations but such is the travesty that something or the other goes for a toss and then the pain and the suffering begins to pour in.

To continue or not to continue in the relation gone sour then becomes the subject to ponder for those who are seriously in it. It can happen to anyone and anywhere. There are no heuristic circumstances.

With every successful adventure we become confident and sceptical with every not so successful ones we encounter in our life. Since the time has drastically changed and we are so very much exposed to the external world it becomes equally very important to take care of our physical, moral, emotional and financial needs but at the same time subjecting oneself at the mercy of this brutal world is no wisdom either!

Open your eyes, ears and more importantly don't judge anyone by the mere appearnace, invest time and utilize your otherwise lazy grey cells.

Wisdom: Don't jump to conclusions fast!

One of my Fav!

2010-01-06T21:10:00.000+05:30

Yeh lau bachalo, yahin se uthegi zindagi phir babula banker.

Yehi se uthega koi kirdar phir unhi roshniyonko lekar.

Kahinto ummeed hai jushtaju ki, phir milenge.

Abhi na parda girao, thehro, dastaan aagey aur bhi hai.

Kabhi Kabhi -2

2010-01-06T21:09:00.000+05:30

Kabhi Raste mein mil jao, to katrakar guzar jaana

Hame iss tarah taknaa jaise pehchaana nahi tumne

Hamara Zikra jab aaye to yun anjaan ban jaana,

ke jaise naam sunkar bhi hame jaana nahi tumne!

~Sahir Ludhiyanwi

Kabhi Kabhi

2010-01-06T21:05:00.001+05:30

Kal nayi konpalein phootengi

Kal naye phool muskayenge

Aur nayi ghaas ke naye farsh par naye paanv ithlayenge

Wo mere beech nahi aaye, mein unke beech mein kyon aayun

unki subah aur shaamon ka, mein ek bhi lamha kyon paaun

~Sahir Ludhiyanwi

To to Tango!

2009-12-30T18:15:00.002+05:30

There are a very few people who have the understanding same as that of you, same wavelength and you feel talking to them day in and day out. After a certain stage you know that if you are in situation A whom you should talk to or if you are in situation B whom you should be interacting with.

Somehow i am answering more queries this year then ever before, and when i feel like asking i feel lonely:( Phew!! There are very few people whom i ask for guidance, help, suggestions. On this year end i felt like talking to them but all of them were on vacation!

No issues.....Life goes on and on...i can't help it either:)

What an Idea!

2009-12-13T23:51:00.002+05:30

There is a growing feeling to get my writings published from quite a sometime now. I had an idea earlier this year when i started writing seriously but with due course of time the flow was broken and then everything went blank.

Now i am contemplating yet another idea, hope this time i will be able to do justice. Though i am not a writer still the idea seems to be worth a try!

Need peaceful time off.

No Plans

2009-12-06T21:02:00.001+05:30

New year is knocking, yet again! Parties, plans, travel itineraies and what not have become the buzzword again...so what if we are still in recession though! Initially i also thought of some plans...but now i will try not to travel as i have already travelled too much this year and certainly i need a break....a peaceful one...so will try to make it a classic affair this time...hope i suceed!

Dedicated to City Life

2009-11-29T23:16:00.003+05:30

"Iss sheher mein log to bahut hai par insaano ki kami lagti hai

har seene mein ek dil to hai par jazbaaton ki kami khalti hai"

Friend & Unfriend

2009-11-29T10:54:00.002+05:30

There are some blogs which i do read time to time. Once such is named "naisadak". The link contains the latest posting and i really liked it.

PS: This link above contains blogs written in Hindi, for those who can't read & understand don't click the link!!

Freakonomics!!

2009-11-26T22:42:00.000+05:30

With all the technology that the world boasts of terrorist attacks are going on and on...Let me present you something different....How much investment did the agencies invested on 10 so called terrorists who attacked Mumbai last year? Let me make a wild guess...roughly $ 60K (Considering that all were trained in our neighboring country)...they came and did all sort of Damage....and after that Government of India went on shopping and they bought all sorts of goodies to protect us from terror costing some millions of $.

So i hope that you must have understood the very economics behind the terror shops! So neither does EU bothers nor the US, it's only us who have to understand the mathematics before it gets too late.

B'day wishes to Meethi!

2009-11-24T22:55:00.003+05:30

"I've learned to laugh & squeal, sit & stand.

And I can walk if you hold my hand.

But the fun has only just begun

Look out world I'm turning ONE!"

This is the Birthday Invite which i received from the lovely daughter of a close friend which i really liked. Sad that i couldn't make it, here is me wishing her on her first b'day with loads of Love:)

Aao Sathi....

2009-11-15T19:40:00.002+05:30

"Aao Sathi sapna dekhein" is a musical set in Chandni Chowk area of Old Delhi. It is a love story of a boy (Baiju Khan), and girl (Gauraiya), the events of which are planned by their respective fathers (Miya Khan and Chironji Lal Gupta)… but soon things begin to take their own course. The story is told by a narrator (Bahumukhi) and his assistant (Sur, a mute). The first part of Aao Sathi… unfolds like a dream, that magical time all of us have experienced in our youth…those days of listless abandon, that mad pursuit for love and what it felt like to have your heart pounding against your chest when found it, that strange innocence which allowed you to see rainbows even when it didn’t rain… the second half continues with this dream bit more but later brings you face to face with the brightness of the day, that painful transition when you can no longer shut your eyes to the harsh glare of the reality, that strong grasp which threatens to crush your very soul when you are separated from the one you love, when ambition begins to rule you and you stop finding joy in simple pleasures. What happens then, do you succumb or do you still hold on to your dreams? Sometime we need to travel back in time to know ourselves… come, take the journey with us.

Today went for this Play. I must say that it went beyond my any probable expectation! It was superb play, kudos to all the wonderful performing artists with equally wonderful music.